when life hands you lemons...

sometimes life doesn't hand you lemons, sometimes it throws them at you. And sometimes the lemon juice gets in your eyes and you cant see because the sting in your eyes makes you squeeze them shut.

life sure is funny. at one point you know for sure what you are going to do with your life. and the moment later you have no idea. i think i lost my certainty when i was sure i was supposed to go to mexico and never went. could god have removed my vision for life, the clarity i once had. so what do i do now? do i go to mexico, still? everyhing has changed since two years ago. i wouldn't be the same. should i seek god and ask for clarity and vision? well sure that could work but i have been asking for a long time now and sill not much has improved. are my motives in asking wrong? could be. i want to serve god, but is there a selfish motive that i may not be aware of? maybe. i don't know. maybe i want clarity for my own comfort. maybe i am self righteous? no that couldn't be i am way to humble. i did feel the need to get involved somewhere after camp and haven't done that yet. in fact that is one of the last things to do that i haven't don't yet. i am going to try.

also do turtles have bones? because the also have shells. i dont get it.